There is a fine line between fiction and reality. One person’s reality may appear as fiction to another. How can you tell the difference? What if there is no proof? Can you take a man on his word? I’ve been lied to so many times in my life that I start a new relationship with the “don’t lie to me” mini speech. I have a hard time trusting people, especially those I am in a relationship with. I realize that it is a bad way to begin one and will most likely doom it anyway…but seriously? How do you trust someone when everyone else has lied? He lays in bed having a near panic attack because I questioned him. I feel like the bad guy but it just didn’t make sense to me and of course this issue is something that cannot be proven. I can’t say with certainty that we’ll make it through this. I’ve been waiting for him to propose and now I don’t want him to. What a nightmare a simple sentence can make. My cat is coming over to comfort me; she knows something is wrong. I adore her even more for that. Right now I am waiting for my meds to kick in so I can escape from my troubles for 8ish hours. Unfortunately they will still haunt me as soon as I wake up. They may even haunt my dreams. I can’t go through another broken relationship again. I don’t think I have it in me.